ha...very good long weekend minus one part i wish i could have pushed the fast forward button...

friday had a really good time with tarbear...after i got off work that is...got started on a project i have to do for my sister in time for christmas...good thing...

had to get up early saturday morning and go to work again...long day at work...got off work met some people...had a shitty time...

left...went home...changed...went to a party at a good friend's house in little rock...love you cutie...thanks for helping me through my issue at the moment....got home late late...

had to be at work the next morning before eight...YUCK...

worked all fucking day till 415...went home...changed then went back to little rock...with my folks and matt...fun fun we had dinner and we actually all got along! ha! imagine that...then went home to watch Gray's Anatomy...gotta love that show...i want gray and shepherd to get together...again...

took two finals today...notice i didn't say pass them...yeah i didn't....

i don't feel like having a confronatation at all this week i am crazy busy with class...other friends...and work work work...if you think i am avoiding you...i am... for the rest of you who don't get this....it doesn't apply to you...

luv ya guys!!

so it's been a long time since i have updated...been crazy busy...and then again just crazy...

a lot has changed in the last few weeks alone...

lost a really good friend (or what i thought was a good friend)...can't get along with my brother because this old friend is now my brother's girlfriend...i understand that the two of them want to see eachother alot and that i would be seeing less of both of them...but how does 'flaking out' on me all the time constitute as a good friendship...oh well fuck them both i don't really care...not to mention matt decided to bail on me when i needed him most...cut him out of my will?? i think so...i can't even stand to get over what he didn't do...(THANK GOD FOR TARBEAR)...oh well Thanksgiving should be interesting though now to see how i handle seeing the asshole...and hearing about the bitch...i really am not very nice about the whole thing but right now i could really care less...

trying to deal with the whole feeling of not having anyone to talk to or anyone to turn to...i have friends and i know they are there for me but this past month my best friends have disappointed me...or have i disappointed myself? i believe it is both...

i have to say though last weekend had a really good time getting drunk with one of my best friends...she is always there for me...and she isnt shallow and i can talk to her when i don't think i can to anyone else...

and got to see the new harry potter movie...awesome...whit and dm always make me smile...

even though she has been there for me and our wonderful alcohol induced weekend was a highlight of the last two months, i still am concealing the real issue...hmmm...

"Just close your eyes, everything will be okay
Just close your eyes, everything will be okay
Just close your eyes, everything will be okay
(Just sleep, we never asked for this)
Just close your eyes, just close your eyes".....(wishful thinking)